Tuesday, December 11, 2012

It's a...

...BOY!!!
 
 
 
Today was my 19 week ultrasound, and we learned that God has blessed us with another sweet son!  The Lord must think this world needs more holy priests!  :)  Paul and the boys all came along to the appointment, and when the ultrasound tech told us the gender, none of us were surprised at all.   I was so relieved to learn that he looks perfectly healthy (after having 3 miscarriages I tend to have a lot of anxiety when I have an ultrasound).  The little guy sure put on a show for us; he did a headstand, sucked his thumb, and even stuck out his tongue at his brothers! :)  I am confident he will fit right in with his big brothers, and I feel at peace that this truly is God's will for our family. May our heavenly Father give my husband and I the grace to raise these boys to become holy gentlemen to love and serve Him as they grow up. We went out to celebrate at Chili's after the big appointment, and then in the evening the boys helped me make cupcakes with blue frosting for dessert...
 
 
Thank you all for your love and prayers...keep sending them our way...we'll need all the help we can get with FIVE boys running around our house soon!  The thought just occured to me that our Blessed Mother was "blessed among women," but I feel like I am very "blessed among boys"--ha ha!  :)
 
P.S.  And if any of you have daughters, perhaps you could invite me over for a very girly tea party someday----just so I can experience what that might be like! :}
 

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Friday, December 7, 2012

Stay with me, Lord


I recently stumbled upon this beautiful prayer of St. Padre Pio, which he would say after receiving Jesus in the Eucharist.  What a treasure!  I now have a copy of it in my purse so that I can pray it after receiving Holy Communion at Mass.  For those of you who have not heard of Padre Pio, he lived in the early 1900s and was given many supernatural gifts from God, such as the stigmata, the ability to know the sins of a person's soul in Confession, and bilocation, just to name a few.  His story is inspiring and well worth reading.  If you would like to learn more about this holy man, click on the following link:  (http://www.padrepiodevotions.org/biography.asp).  
 
 
 
Stay with me, Lord
Prayer of St. Pio of Pietrelcina after Holy Communion
Stay with me, Lord, for it is necessary to have
You present so that I do not forget You.
You know how easily I abandon You.

Stay with me, Lord, because I am weak
and I need Your strength,
that I may not fall so often.

Stay with me, Lord, for You are my life,
and without You, I am without meaning and hope.

Stay with me, Lord, for You are my light,
and without You, I am in darkness.

Stay with me, Lord, to show me Your will.

Stay with me, Lord, so that I hear Your voice
and follow You.

Stay with me, Lord, for I desire to love You 
ever more, and always be in Your company.

Stay with me, Lord, if You wish me to be faithful to You.

Stay with me, Lord, for as poor as my soul is,
I want it to be a place of consolation for You, a nest of love.

Stay with me, Jesus, for it is getting late and the day is coming to a close, and life passes;
death, judgment, eternity approaches. It is necessary to renew my strength,
so that I will not stop along the way and for that I need You.
It is getting late and death approaches,
I fear the darkness, the temptations, the dryness, the cross, the sorrows.
O how I need You, my Jesus, in this night of exile!

Stay with me, Jesus, because in the darkness of this life with all its dangers, I need You.
Help me recognize You as Your disciples did at the breaking of the bread,
so that the Eucharistic Communion be the Light which disperses the darkness,
the force which sustains me, the unique joy of my heart.

Stay with me, Lord, because at the hour of my death, I want to remain united to You,
if not by Communion, at least by Your grace and love.

Stay with me, Jesus, I do not ask for divine consolation, because I do not merit it,
but the gift of Your Presence, oh yes, I ask this of You!

Stay with me, Lord, for it is You alone I look for, Your Love, Your Grace, Your Will, Your Heart,
Your Spirit, because I love You and ask no other reward but to love You more and more, with a strong and active love. 
Grant that I may love You with all my heart while on earth, 
so that I can continue to love You perfectly throughout all eternity, dear Jesus.
Amen.

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Thursday, December 6, 2012

Thankful Thursday: my mom's visit edition

My husband has been gone for a couple of weeks on a business trip, so my mom came to rescue me for about 5 days in the middle of his absense---what a blessing!  Most of the things I have to be thankful for lately are related to her visit (hence the title of this blog post).  So here's my list, along with a few photos to make you smile :)
 
  • watching my mom play games and read books with my boys
  • decorating the Christmas tree with my mom and the boys
  • listening to non-stop Christmas music--especially Anne Murray, James Taylor, Fernando Ortega, and my new favorite...the Benedictine Sisters of Mary (I feel like I'm in heaven listening to angels when they sing!)
  • continued success in potty training Nathanael (he still doesn't "like" to go #2, but he does it every time on the potty with no accidents, so I'm calling that a success)
  • the way my boys love John Denver's music as much as their mother (I never thought that could be possible, but I love it...especially hearing Nathanael belt out "Take me Home Country Roads" from the back seat while driving to school)
  • Nathanael's ADORABLE 2 year portraits that we recently had taken at Walmart (I was so thankful my mom came with me to help get him to smile so sweet for the camera)
  • simplifying Christmas spending by setting a 3 gift limit for our kids (I figure that Jesus only got 3 gifts from the wisemen, so why should our kids get any more than the King of Kings, right?)
  • sipping a cup of coffee in the morning now that I'm not nauseous anymore
  • the delight on my boys' faces when they get to open another door to their Advent calendars (their aunt and uncle from Germany sent them each a calendar filled with authentic German chocolate...how cool!)
  • hearing our baby's heartbeat
  • missing my husband and anticipating his return to my arms
 
 
 
 


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Sunday, November 25, 2012

St. Maria Faustina on the Mass

I am still slowly, prayerfully making my way through St. Maria Faustina's Diary.  It has been such a treasure to me, and I find myself constantly underlining passages and feeling convicted to improve the state of my soul.  How I long for St. Faustina's unshakable faith, her natural manner of daily conversing with Christ, her desire to save souls by offering her own suffering for their sake, and her profound love of the Mass.  How often do I take Mass for granted and simply go just for the sake of going?  How often am I more concerned about whether or not my kids are sitting still than the miracle taking place upon the altar?  How often do I feel like I have just survived a marathon by walking Nathanael to and from the back of the church, instead of feeling renewed by the Word of God and the Bread of Life?  Whereas, for St. Faustina, Mass was the absolute pinnacle of her day, she longed for it, she prepared for it, she made every effort to make it to Mass (daily!) even when she was dying of tuberculosis.  Jesus often appeared to St. Faustina during the Mass and shared consoling words and graces with her soul.  Perhaps if my soul were more in-tune with the miracle happening before my eyes, Jesus would send extra consolations and graces to my needy soul.  I think He is always waiting to pour His love and mercy into our hearts, but he has to wait for our hearts to be open to receive His gifts...and quite often we are just too distracted by earthly things or, quite frankly, lukewarm in our love of heavenly things.  Anyway, here is a passage I just underlined that highlights the importance of the Mass according to holy Faustina.  May it inspire you as it inspired me:

"Oh, what awesome mysteries take place during Mass!  With what great devotion should we listen to and take part in this death of Jesus.  One day we will know what God is doing for us in each Mass, and what sort of gift He is preparing in it for us.  Only His divine love could permit that such a gift be provided for us.  O Jesus, my Jesus, with what great pain is my soul pierced when I see this fountain of life gushing forth with such sweetness and power for each soul, while at the same time I see souls withering away and drying up through their own fault.  O Jesus, grant that the power of mercy embrace these souls."  (entry #914)

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Thursday, November 22, 2012

A Special Thanksgiving for Grandma

This Thanksgiving, my family has something very special to be thankful for:  my grandmother, Bernice Russell, was invited to meet her Savior for a Thanksgiving feast in Heaven!  Grandma passed away peacefully in the middle of the night yesterday, and there is quite a miraculous story to share...  My mom woke up at about 2:00am and couldn't sleep, so she decided to pray.  One of her specific prayers was for my grandma's guardian angel to take her hand and take her home to Jesus because she had suffered enough.  Less than an hour later, the phone rang at my mom and dad's house.  It was grandma's nursing home calling to let my parents know that Bernice had passed away sometime between 2:30am and 3:00am.  Coincidence?  I'll let you decide for yourself.  But I am convinced that God hears our every prayer and honors our specific requests when they are in accordance with His will.  Forever I will treasure the image of my grandma being escorted to heaven by her faithful guardian angel.  What a gift and consolation for our family!
 
My grandma lived a full and happy life of 98 years, with the joy of watching her four children have children of their own, and spending many years enjoying her great-grandchildren who lit up her eyes like nothing else could.  Up until the last few weeks of her life, she kept her wit and her spunk, and she always loved visiting with people about the "good old days".  Grandma passed away due to a tumor found in her lower abdomen, and she was simply too old and frail for the doctors to attempt a surgery.  Thankfully, the good Lord made her suffering very brief, for she died less than 2 weeks from the time the doctors first detected the tumor.  My parents were blessed to spend time with her nearly every day for the past 25 years, and they spent hours and hours holding her hand and praying with her during her final days on this earth.  My mom marvels at how grandma's faith had grown these past few years of her life and is so thankful to have spent countless hours with her talking about spiritual things. The Chaplet of Divine Mercy especially brought much comfort to my parents and my grandma during her final days of suffering, and we are all confident that Jesus poured out his abundant mercy upon my grandma at the hour of her death. 
 
I will miss spending time with my grandma when I go home to South Dakota to visit each summer.  I will miss hearing her stories of being a hair beautician and being married to my grandpa, Charles, who she is now happily reunited with, I'm sure.  I remember when Paul and I were dating, her eyes would get this twinkle and she would say, "Ain't love grand!?"  I will miss her pulling out all of her old paintings and drawings to show me for the 100th time---paintings of famous movie stars and majestic mountains and roses so realistic you could almost smell them.  She had so much artistic talent, and I know I will think of her every time I pull out my paints and brushes and attempt to use some of the talent she passed on to me.  Perhaps most of all, I will miss the way her eyes lit up when I would bring my kids to come see her, and she would say over and over again how handsome and good-natured they were (I'm happy she didn't see much of their not-so-good-natured moments!)  Yes, I will miss her dearly, but I know she will be even closer to me now as I visit with her beyond that ever-so-thin veil between Heaven and Earth, and seek her special intercession.
 
So on this Thanksgiving Day, will you please say a prayer of thanks with me for my grandma's homecoming to heaven, or if she's not quite there yet (meaning, a short stay in purgatory), please offer a prayer for speedy travels for her soul to reach paradise very soon.  Thank you and Happy Thanksgiving to all of you!
 
 Grandma Bernice and Grandpa Charles...a long time ago.
 
 


Grandma Bernice...summer of 2012.
 

Nathanael sharing some chocolate covered raisins with his great-grandma. 


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Monday, November 19, 2012

Milestones...

Today is my 16 week milestone, which seems monumental to me for a few reasons:
  1. I've made it past the date of my furthest-along miscarriage
  2. I'm finally feeling better which naturally makes me happier about being pregnant (and happier, in general, which my family is very thankful for!)
  3. I'm starting to feel the baby fluttering around inside which is helping me to finally bond with this sweet little miracle
  4. At my appointment last week the nurse scheduled the "big" ultrasound, and I'm thrilled to have that date on my calendar and start counting down the days until we find out what we are having(Dec. 11th in case you're curious).  I think we will take the older boys out of school so that they can come to the ultrasound, meet their new little brother or sister on the screen, and then go out for pink or blue ice cream afterwards to celebrate the gender :) 

 
Here's me getting bigger by the moment it feels like...
 
See, doesn't my belly look even bigger 2 seconds after the first shot was taken?
 
And here's our little man in his big boy underwear!  When Paul was taking my picture, Nathanael wanted to get in the picture too.  Apparently, he is pretty proud of his big milestone:  he stayed dry all day in his big boy underpants---hurray!
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Thursday, November 15, 2012

Thankful Thursday

  • 15 weeks pregnant and FINALLY FEELING BETTER (very, very thankful that my nausea has almost completely disappeared)
  • my boys' handsome school pictures to put on my wall
  • Dominic learning to behave better at school (no more notes being sent home from his teacher)
  • Mass and Confession...grace upon grace...so thankful to be Catholic
  • a date with my two older boys to a new restaurant in town
  • friends sharing their maternity clothes with me
  • afternoon peace and prayer-time
  • my "4th Day" Bible study group of women who pray for me and encourage me
  • potty training Nathanael (so far going very well)
  • boys playing together in the snow (so thankful that they love each other so much and get along so well)
  • going to bed early

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