Sunday, October 31, 2010

Wishing You a Holy All Hallow's Eve!





Excitement is in the air today at our house because we are busy preparing for our annual All Saint's Day party that we host. I have two meals cooking in the crock-pot (Heavenly Ham and Potatoes & Totally Saintly Tomato Soup), the boys are putting the finishing touches on their saint costumes, our Saint-O-Lanterns are complete, our saintly pinata is ready to be smashed to bits, we have our saint games all lined up, the boys have been practicing some saintly songs on the piano for all of us to sing tonight, and I have printed a Litany of the Saints prayer for us to pray before our meal. I pray that it will be an evening of glorifying the Lord through the remembrance of His holy saints! It takes a lot of work to reclaim this highly secularized holiday for Christ, but I think it can be done without missing out on any fun! I will post pictures and more details soon.

From our home to yours, wishing you a Holy All Hallow's Eve!

(P.S. Please pray that I don't go into labor before our party...I've been having lots of mild contractions, but I am hoping this baby will stay put at least a few more days!!!)

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Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Waiting with Love



Well, I made it to 36 weeks!!! There were many moments that I never thought I'd make it this far, so I am so very grateful to be here. I am completely off of bed rest, and the doctor says the baby is free to come any time now...although it would be ideal if he waited another couple of weeks for extra growth and development. Today at my doctor's appointment I had dilated 1 cm, so my body is starting to progress towards labor, which is very exciting (1 cm is certainly no indicator that labor is eminent though...I remember being at 1 cm for a few weeks with my other pregnancies, but at least it's a positive sign that my body is warming up for childbirth). I kind of suspected I had progressed a little bit this past week because I have been having more frequent contractions and the distinct feeling that the baby had dropped because of all the pressure down low. The baby is definitely lower...I can feel every tiny movement of his head, which is NOT a pleasant experience. I told Paul that I think our baby has his big nose because every time the baby turns his head I feel like jumping out of my skin!! :) I think the fact that I was up and about this week (and probably overworking my body a bit too much) probably caused the dilation and the droppage, so I am again thankful that my doctor kept me on bedrest up until 35 weeks so that I wouldn't have the baby too soon.

Even though I've been waiting 9 months for this baby to arrive, it's hard for me to wrap my mind around the fact that I will soon be wrapping my arms around our sweet little bundle of joy. It's a bit overwhelming when I think about it...

Our family will never be the same.

Our hearts will have to expand.

Our selfishness will be diminished as we focus on filling this new little person with the love and attention he will need.

I guess those are great reasons why babies are such blessings...they take the focus off ourselves and lift our thoughts to more important things---like serving, sacrificing, and choosing to be thankful despite the dirty diapers, the fussing, and the sleep deprivation (but let's not think about those things quite yet) :) Let's just focus on eagerly waiting for this little one and welcoming him with love.


"I love you my sweet baby and I am eager to meet you in person SOON!"

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P.S. The photographer for these sweet photos was our sweet 7 year old, Michael. Didn't he do a super job? And it sure beat paying the steep price that a professional photographer would have charged. Poor Michael didn't get paid a thing, but he was just beaming to be our little helper :) Thanks, Michael! :)

Monday, October 25, 2010

SMILE :)


Is this or is this not the most adorable 4 year old you've ever seen? Perhaps I'm biased, but I can't help but think this little guy is the cutest preschooler on the planet. Oh how he makes me smile every day, and I am just tickled how the photographer captured Dominic's delightful laugh on camera. Whenever I'm having a bad day, I'll just glance at this photo to cheer me up :) I will treasure this picture always, as will I forever treasure all the beautiful children that God has blessed me with. I certainly don't deserve such blessings, but I gladly accept them and thank God for them daily.

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Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Oh Happy Day!




Today I reached a huge milestone...35 weeks! What that means is that if I go into labor from here on out, I will be able to deliver at our local hospital, rather than being life-flighted to a bigger hospital with a NICU. I am so relieved. The other good news is that my OB is allowing me off "strict" bed rest. She says I still need to "take it easy" and do a lot of sitting and laying down when I can, but she has now given me permission to be up and about to take the kids to and from school, to attend church, and to go on other short outings. I feel like singing out loud! :) I am so eager to pick up the boys from school and see them run into my open arms again, to go to rosary group and pray with my friends, to go outside with the boys and enjoy the last few days of glorious fall weather...to simply feel like a mom, a person, a useful member of our family again...

The only bad part about this good news is that now that I'm capable of performing my daily duties again, my mom has decided to head back home to SD for a few weeks to catch up on all her responsibilities there. I will miss her terribly, but I know that my dad, my grandma, and many others will be so happy to have her home. I guess I've been spoiled by her for nearly 5 weeks, so it's time for me to share :) Plus, she is leaving me with a freezer full of meals, a clean house, and 3 very happy boys whose love tanks are filled to the brim with Grandma's love...so I really cannot complain. My mom is truly amazing...a walking saint...and I desperately hope to follow in her godly footsteps. I'm convinced that her prayers and her helping hands have kept this little baby in my womb these past weeks---and also kept Paul, the kids, and I sane and happy during this trial. Thanks for everything mom! May God shower you with blessings!!!

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Monday, October 11, 2010

34 Week Update

Today I had my 34 week OB and ultrasound appointments, and I feel like showing off our little guy's 3D portrait :) Isn't he sweet and handsome!? We even caught him smiling for a brief second...one of those cute gassy smiles that they do in their sleep...it was priceless. I can't tell you how relieved I felt after seeing his precious face and learning that he is a healthy 5 1/2 pounds already! Everything looked absolutely perfect in the ultrasound. He is measuring in the 53rd percentile and the placenta and the cord both look healthy (which they are monitoring closely because of my blood clotting disorders). At my OB appointment I learned that I still have not started dilating at all, which is a good thing since I'm still too early to deliver at the hospital in town and this baby still needs a few more weeks to grow and develop. I am still on bedrest, but my OB is loosening the reigns slightly. She is allowing me to get out of bed twice a day for 1 hour periods of time--as long as I "take it easy" during those times. She is even letting me discontinue my terbutaline drugs, unless I start contracting more than 4 times per hour. Right now I only have mild contractions once or twice an hour, which she thinks is normal for me and isn't concerned about them. I am so thrilled to be done with those drugs, and I'm feeling confident that I will make it past the 36 week mark now. It's hard to believe that I've been on bedrest for 4 weeks and that I only have 2 more weeks to go! Paul reminded me that I should try to enjoy these last 2 weeks as much as possible, because once I'm off of bedrest and this little guy arrives, my life will be utter chaos and sleep depravation and I'll long for these quiet days in my bed reading, praying, and getting served :) He is probably right, so I plan on doing just that :) A huge thanks to all of you who have been praying for baby and me, calling with words of encouragement, sending care packages, and bringing me Huckleberry smoothies and decaf mocha lattes. I have literally felt your prayers and I am so thankful for each of you.


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Thursday, October 7, 2010

Reminiscing on the Rosary

Today is another beautiful feast day in the Catholic Church, the Feast of our Lady of the Rosary. I cannot adequately describe the influence the rosary has had on my faith because I don't know how to even describe my faith without including Our Lady's influence in helping it grow. I've been praying the rosary since I was a small child. I especially have fond memories praying it with my parents and my brothers on long road trips, and also praying it with my mother in her prayer room with a candle gently glowing at the table when one of our relatives was very ill. How comforting, how holy, how near the Holy Spirit felt during those times! The rosary has always brought me such peace when I lay my cares in my heavenly Mother's hands and trust that she will plead for our intentions as she places them at the feet of her Son, Jesus. During the darkest times in my life, when I simply could not see God's will or find words to pray, I could find consolation in the memorized words of the rosary, simply meditating on the life of Jesus while I felt Mary wrapping her loving mantle around me as I prayed the words that I knew by heart and didn't have to come up with words on my own. I also have sweet memories of praying the rosary in Medjugorje in St. James Church, surrounded by hundreds of other pilgrims who had come to be close to the miraculous apparitions occurring there. We all prayed the rosary as one family, in one voice, although our voices spoke a dozen different languages or more---yet somehow we were able to follow along in perfect time because the rosary has the same rhythm in every tongue. The most recent special memory of the rosary for me was praying it with my husband during our courtship. We would snuggle on the couch together to pray, and if neither of us had a set of rosary beads to pray with, we would sweetly use each other's 10 fingers to keep track of the Hail Mary's as we fell more in love with each other and with Jesus at the same time. During an apparition to Sister Mary of Agreda in the 17 century, Jesus told Sister Mary that "Just as he who knows Me knows the Father, so also he who knows My mother knows Me." So true in my life. Mary has constantly pointed me to her Son each time I pray the rosary, and for that I am eternally grateful.

Now I hope you won't mind if I go off on a little side tangent that is on my heart today... While I've been stuck in bed these past few weeks on bed rest, I have learned to love a variation of the traditional rosary that I recently discovered (even though it's been around for decades). It is called the Rosary of the Seven Sorrows and it focuses on Mary's sorrows during her life and helps you to unite your own suffering with her's and with Christ's. It has really helped me to find the meaning in my own suffering, and it reminds me of how much Jesus and Mary love us to have endured such suffering on our behalf. Here is a brief history of this beautiful rosary with the instructions for how to pray it. You may even want to copy it into a word document so that you can print it and use it during your prayer time. I hope it touches your soul like it has touched mine!

The Rosary of the Seven Sorrows

This rosary recalls the seven major sorrows that the Virgin Mary suffered through during the life, trials, and agonizing death of her Son, Jesus Christ. It's very special to the Immaculate Heart of the Blessed Mother, and she wants all of us to say it as often as possible, but especially on Tuesdays and Fridays. The Rosary of the Seven Sorrows dates back to the Middle Ages, but it is gaining popularity following the Marian apparitions in Kibeho, Rwanda approved by the Catholic Church in 2001. During Mary's apparitions to Marie-Claire Mukangango, she assigned the young visionary a mission to reintroduce this special rosary to the world. Before her untimely death, Marie-Claire did just that, traveling widely to teach it to thousands of people, who then taught it to thousands of others. During her visitations to Kibeho, the Holy Virgin revealed that this rosary possesses immense spiritual power for those who say it sincerely. She promised that when prayed with an open and repentant heart, the rosary would win us the Lord’s forgiveness for our sins and free our souls from guilt and remorse. She also promised that over time, the rosary would develop within us a deep understanding of why we sin, and that knowledge would give us the wisdom and strength to change or remove any internal flaws, weakness of character, or personality faults, causing unhappiness and keeping us from enjoying the joyous life God intended for us to live. The Blessed Mother also stressed that the Rosary of the Seven Sorrows is intended to complement—and in no way replace—the traditional rosary. Pray both rosaries regularly and you’ll be doubly blessed!


How to Pray the Rosary of the Seven Sorrows

Introductory Prayer
My God, I offer You this rosary for Your glory, so I may honor Your Holy Mother, the Blessed Virgin, so I can share and meditate upon her suffering. I humbly beg You to give me true repentance for all my sins. Give me wisdom and humility so that I may receive all the indulgences contained in this prayer.

Act of Contrition
O my God, I am heartily sorry for having offended You, and I detest all my sins because I dread the loss of heaven and the pains of hell; but most of all because they offend You, my God, You Who are all good and deserving of all my love. I firmly resolve, with the help of Your grace, to confess my sins, to do penance, and to amend my life. Amen.

Pray 3 Hail Marys for the Tears of Mary

Before each Mystery, pray:

Most merciful mother, remind us always of the sorrows of your Son, Jesus!

First Sorrowful Mystery: The Prophecy of Simeon
"And Simeon blessed the Lord and said: "Lord, now let thou thy servant depart in peace, according to thy word; for mine eyes have seen thy salvation which thou hast prepared in the presence of all peoples, a light for revelation to the Gentiles, and for glory to thy people Israel." And his father and his mother marveled at what was said about him; and Simeon blessed them and said to Mary his mother, "Behold, this child is set for the fall and rising of many in Israel, and for a sign of contradiction. And a sword will pierce through your own soul also, that thoughts out of many hearts may be revealed." (Lk2:29-35)

"I console thee, O sorrowful Mother Mary, on account of the grief suffered by thy tender Immaculate Heart at the prophesy of the aged and holy Simeon. O dearest Mother, through thy afflicted heart implore for me the Virtue of Humility and the Gift of the Fear of the Lord."
(Pray 1 Our Father and 7 Hail Marys)

Most merciful mother, remind us always of the sorrows of your Son, Jesus!

Second Sorrowful Mystery: The Flight into Egypt
"An angel of the Lord appeared to Joseph in a dream and said, 'Rise, take the child and his mother, and flee to Egypt, and remain there until I tell you, for Herod is about to search for the child to destroy him.' And he rose and took the child and his mother by night and departed to Egypt and remained there until the death of Herod. For the Lord had spoken by the prophet, 'Out of Egypt have I called my son.'" (Mt2:13-15)

I console thee, O sorrowful Mother Mary, on account of those distressing fears which thy affectionate heart endured on the flight to Egypt and during thy sojourn there. O dearest Mother, through this thy anxious heart, implore for me the Virtue of Generosity, particularly for the poor, and the Gift of Piety.
(Pray 1 Our Father and 7 Hail Marys)

Most merciful mother, remind us always of the sorrows of your Son, Jesus!

Third Sorrowful Mystery: The Loss of Jesus in the Temple
"Now his parents went to Jerusalem every year at the feast of the Passover. And when he was twelve years old, they went up according to custom; and when the feast was ended, as they were returning, the boy Jesus stayed behind in Jerusalem. His parents did not know it, but supposing him to be in the company they went a day's journey, and they sought him among their kinsfolk and acquaintances. When they did not find him, they returned to Jerusalem, seeking him. After three days they found him in the temple, sitting among the teachers, listening to them and asking them questions; and all who heard him were amazed at his understanding and his answers. And when they saw him they were astonished; and his mother said to him, "Son, why have you treated us so? Behold, your father and I have been looking for you anxiously." And he said to them, "How is it that you sought me? Did you not know that I must be in my Father's house?" And they did not understand the saying which he spoke to them. And he went down with them and came to Nazareth and was obedient to them, and his mother kept all these things in her heart. And Jesus increased in wisdom and in stature, and in favor with God and man. (Lk2:41-52)

"I console thee, O Sorrowful Mother Mary, on the account of that anxiety which thy worried heart endured in the loss of thy beloved Child Jesus. O dearest Mother, through this thy exceedingly troubled Immaculate Heart, implore for me the Virtue of Chastity and the Gift of Knowledge."
(Pray 1 Our Father and 7 Hail Marys)

Most merciful mother, remind us always of the sorrows of your Son, Jesus!

Fourth Sorrowful Mystery: Mary Meets Jesus on the Way to Calvary
"And as they led him away, they seized one Simon of Cyrene, who was coming in from the country, and laid on him the cross, to carry it behind Jesus. And there followed him a great multitude of the people, and of women who bewailed and lamented him. But Jesus turning to them said, “Daughters of Jerusalem, do not weep for me, but weep for yourselves and your children.” (Lk23:26-28)

"I console thee, O sorrowful Mother Mary, on account of that horror with which thy motherly heart was stricken when meeting Jesus, bearing his cross. O dearest Mother, through this thy exceedingly oppressed Immaculate Heart, implore for me the Virtue of Patience and the Gift of Fortitude."
(Pray 1 Our Father and 7 Hail Marys)

Most merciful mother, remind us always of the sorrows of your Son, Jesus!

Fifth Sorrowful Mystery: Mary Stands at the Foot of the Cross
"And when they came to the place which is called The Skull, there they crucified him and the criminals, one on the right and one on the left. And Jesus said, "Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do." And they cast lots to divide his garments. And the people stood by, watching; but the rulers scoffed at him, saying, "He saved others, let him save himself if he is the Christ of God, his Chosen One!" The soldiers also mocked him, coming up and offering him vinegar, and saying, "If you are the King of the Jews, save yourself!" There was also an inscription over him, "This is the King of the Jews." It was now about the sixth hour, and there was darkness over the whole land until the ninth hour, while the sun's light failed; and the curtain of the temple was torn in two. Then Jesus, crying with a loud voice, said, "Father, into thy hands I commit my spirit!" And having said this he breathed his last. " (Lk23:33-38, 44-46)

"I console thee, O sorrowful Mother Mary, on account of that martyrdom which tortured thy magnanimous heart at the death and agony of thy Son, Jesus. O dearest Mother, through this thy martyred Immaculate Heart, implore for me the Virtue of Temperance and the Gift of Counsel."
(Pray 1 Our Father and 7 Hail Marys)

Most merciful mother, remind us always of the sorrows of your Son, Jesus!

Sixth Sorrowful Mystery: Mary Receives the Dead Body of Jesus
"But one of the soldiers pierced his side with a spear, and at once there came out blood and water. He who saw it has borne witness--his testimony is true, and he knows that he tells the truth--that you also may believe. For these things took place that the scripture might be fulfilled, 'Not a bone of him shall be broken.' And again another scripture says, "They shall look on him whom they have pierced. Now there was a man named Joseph from the town of Arimathea. He was a member of the council, a good and righteous man, who had not consented to their purpose and deed, and he was looking for the kingdom of God. This man went to Pilate and asked for the body of Jesus. Then he took it down and wrapped it in a linen shroud." (Jn19:34-37;Lk23:50-53)

"I console thee, O sorrowful Mother Mary, on account of the anguish inflicted upon thy tender heart by the thrust of the lance that opened the side of thy Son, Jesus, and pierced His most adorable Heart. O dearest Mother, through this vicarious transfixion of thy own Immaculate Heart, implore for me the Virtue of Selfless Love and the Gift of Understanding."
(Pray 1 Our Father and 7 Hail Marys)

Most merciful mother, remind us always of the sorrows of your Son, Jesus!

Seventh Sorrowful Mystery: Jesus is Placed in the Tomb
"After this Joseph of Arimathea, who was a disciple of Jesus, but secretly, for fear of the Jews, asked Pilate that he might take away the body of Jesus, and Pilate gave him leave. So he came and took away his body. Nicodemus also, who had at first come to him by night, came bringing a mixture of myrrh and aloes, about a hundred pounds' weight. They took the body of Jesus and bound it in linen cloths with the spices, as is the burial custom of the Jews. Now in the place where he was crucified there was a garden, and in the garden a new tomb where no one had ever been laid. So because of the Jewish day of Preparation, as the tomb was close at hand, they laid Jesus there." (Jn19:38-42)

"I console thee, O Sorrowful Mother Mary, on account of that agony of soul which racked thy most loving heart at the burial of thy Son, Jesus. O dearest Mother, through this extreme torment that filled thy burdened Immaculate Heart, implore for me the Virtue of Zeal and the Gift of Wisdom."
(Pray 1 Our Father and 7 Hail Marys)

Closing Prayer:
Queen of Martyrs, your heart suffered so much. I beg you by the merits of the tears you shed in these terrible and sorrowful times, to obtain for me and the sinners of the world, the grace of complete sincerity and repentance. Beloved Mother, teach us to accept our sufferings and unite them with yours and your Son’s, to help atone for our sins and those of the whole world. Amen

Mary, who was conceived without sin and who suffered for us, pray for us. (3x)

Sources used: http://7sorrows.org/7sorrows.aspx, http://holyhillcross.com/TheSevenSorrows.htm

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Sunday, October 3, 2010

Pieces Found...Assembly Required

Perhaps some of you remember my depressing little post awhile back about how I feel like I'm missing something in my life which is depriving me of the joy I know God wants me to have. Well, I'm starting to believe that God ordained this time on bedrest for me to find those missing pieces. I guess He had to force me to be still so that I could hear His still, small voice. In my prayer time, some recurring themes keep coming to me, and I really believe they are the answers to my search for joy and deeper meaning in my life:

  • Clothe myself in humility---until selflove disappears


  • Be grateful for all things---especially my crosses


  • Cultivate a deeper prayer life---make no excuses


  • Fill my hunger with heavenly food, the Eucharist---more than once a week


Now that I've found the pieces, I need to pray for the grace to assemble them into my life... Perhaps God will give me the assembly instructions during the remainder of my time on bedrest. Two weeks down, 3 more weeks to go! :)

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